THAT...

...was a mistake!

More of THIS and THAT

I'm having a hard time accepting my life right now. A few weeks ago, I wrote about the cosmic joke and a choice between THIS and THAT.

Well, I chose THAT. And I'm fighting against my decision. Unable to find peace with it.

I read recently that to gain freedom, I needed fierce integrity. Doesn't that mean holding to my rawest, juiciest truth NO MATTER WHAT? When I chose THAT, did I lose integrity? Does my inability to sit with this mean I chose wrongly?

Fucking fuck.

Spring is hot pink

Bynum Bridge: doesn't it make you feel good?

Spring stillness

"By being still and receptive, instead of busily trying to find solutions, we give our intelligence the time and space it needs to find an appropriate way to proceed.... What is fresh and alive comes only from the unknown."

- John Welwood, Ordinary Magic

Stars

if i happen to open
my eyes in the night
head to pillow, sleepy waking

i see stars glinting, tossed
across the velvet sky
inked shadows of tall pines